Funny world this...once you complete ninth grade, you're automatically enrolled for start-working-for-the-future club..."study hard right now so that you can relax later" they say...after tenth comes the next-big-step...the twelfth grade. prepare for your boards AND for the university entrance exams...six to seven hours of school plus three to four hours of coaching...and at the end of the day you dont just sleep...you pass out. one year of this..for what joy?..common trend among indian parents.."engineering padho" (roughly translates to "take up engineering")..slog here again for four years enduring an endless streak of assignments, tests, projects and examinations...no no no...i'm not done yet...after that comes the post grad, then the hunt for a stable job, start earning, then most probably start a family, keep it together, kids, school fees and the cycle starts all over again...GODDAMN!!..even on a day to day scale every-freakin-thing is clockworkish...wake up, breakfast, college (may be office or school or whatever for you), lunch, more college, home, dinner, sleep...i'm so caught up in this mess that i hardly take out any time for myself...whats the point of it all when you're livin each day for someone else?...there's no satisfaction that way...and each day you go to bed feeling that the day was--kind of incomplete..it takes out the excitement every morning..i wake up, not thinking about what i WILL do today; but thinking about what i WILL HAVE to do..you cannot decide your own timetable..instead you are MADE to follow the order in which you have to work...you cease to be a human..instead you end up feeling controlled like a robot..i mean seriously...try this...stop whatever you're doin right now, and think about what you've done today...was it anything different than what you've done yesterday..(yea..i know a few smartasses who would be like "yesterday i did math and today i listened to songs...putting the shotgun aside....thats not what i'm talkin about...) stuff's become hopelessly monotonous for me...routine has taken over to the extent of me getting cenophobic...for a person who enjoys stuff like daydreaming, doodling and even looking at the road as cars go by, the lack of oppurtunity to do so is slowly drivin me crazy...i guess this is how all sociopaths start...i just hope i dont bec-...oh great big bang theory season 3 finished downloading...i feel better now...:P :P
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